Lost

I think i lost again. I just really have no idea where am i now. Seems so dark, but this darkness only wandering around me. I completely clueless. What should i do? I can't even describe my own self well right now. I just don't know how to act or how to react.

I know this condition will just make my condition worse isn't it. My body's already so sick, and so does my heart. This sickness just become double. I am too  tired to cry, that's why i hate crying. Crying is so tiring. I also to tired to share, but i need it to share. I know it well that it's the best if we just share to Allah. I know it well..but why i'm still so stubborn?

This is life, isn't it. This is what called life. Just face it..

Huft..